Hello hahaha i haven't blogged in like dinosaur years gahaha :b I've just been busy with life lately, ever since school started . And also partially (or maybe predominantly) ... I'm lazy . HAHA but like really i don't have much time and stamina and determination and blah to blog all the time sooooo *does the wapp bitch-please pose* . HAHAHA i decided that i'll prolly only blog during the holidays when my life is more boom booms to be blog-worthy and when i have more than enough time to kill . Like please i don't even have enough time to breathe now . School is just . sigh
NOTE . Hahaha my prev blog posts have always been more picture-domineering but this one will be more wordy and all cos' i don't have shit to display about my life and i only have shit to write about now . Yes hahaha .
SO i can't actually really remember what has been happening and all that but EOYS ARE COMING let's go prepare my funeral now . And idk everyone is like going crazy over it sighs i really don't like this . And honestly i feel like i have changed :( Like, i used to not give a single damn about studies and all that . I 'd always just study the night before exams and it has always worked for me the past 2 years . Ok . It's just good enough to get me a GPA to at least promote which is like my goal in school or something HAHAHA . But idk i just feel like this year is different and i think my method wouldn't work anymore somehow. My CA1 was pretty okay actually it's actually higher than expected wts . But CA2 was just boomblamboomblam i can't even describe it ah . I failed nearly everything i think? Is it? Idk actually . But yeah it was just quite horrible . But Jordan told me CA2's grading system is more focused on classwork WHICH I REALLY HOPE IT IS if not my GPA will just go down down down down down~ Idk la but i'm just a bit insecure now cos' the GPA to promote to IP is 2.4 wtfreakkk . To all you smarties out there as easy as it may seem to you, it is not easy okayyy . To me it's not >< Especially after you have flunked CA2 . And EOYS is like going to be so much harder i'm not even the least bit confident that i can do well . I mean i don't wanna yknow score with flying colors or whatever i just wanna promote uh :/ Idk .
Yeah so i guess the part of me that has changed is that i am actually studying now what the hell hahaha this is so unlike me but yeah i'm still in the midst of trying to actually STUDY yknow . Yes you get it right hahaha . It takes time to master the art come on x'D
I don't actually mind going to the O-level class yknow hahaha . And to be honest if you give me a choice i will wanna take o-levels and move out of dhs hahaha :b (sorry to dhs lovers . yes i am not exactly a lover of this school) Yeah it's just my stand ah :) But if now i were to opt to go to o-levels i will actually have to retain one year which means i will have to waste a year which i absolutely don't wantttt :b As the saying goes right, 人生短短几十年 :b So 我没有那个美国时间 to waste a year . It's just not something i want in my life . Yeah so i really don't wanna drop out of IP . Not now . But i might still consider moving out of dhs when i finish Y4 idk . We'll see how it goes :))
OH YA and yknow i have been thinking about my future and all that and i was thinking that i might take up psychology in university :D Bcos' of my MBTI personality career recommendation and also bcos of my interest and all that :)) I think i'd work better with people than with papers/computers seriously hahaha :b I actually aspire to do something that will be related to more like botanical stuff like flowers and plants . Maybe jobs like botanist (?) I don't know ah i'll see about that cos it's a little far-fetched for reality now i'm damn depressed :( But yeaah that's out of point HAHA . And i also read that to be able to enroll into NUS Psychology you'll have to be good in Math i think? And that's the only academic criteria? I'm not actl very sure but that's what i read somewhere :b So for my A-levels i'm just gonna BLAST my math and the other subjs can go and die now . HAHAHA no okay i'm kidding okay :b
So back to topic . I don't need to score with flying colors and i'm not aspiring to get a perfect GPA of 4.0 and whatnot :b I just want a 2.4 for my overall to stay in IP uh :)) I hope i can secure that score ><
I have been studying latelyyy you know with my own routine and all that . And hopefully it'll pay off :b OH and i have decided to ditch chem hahaha like not study for it at all cos' i'm like super short of time now so yeah i have to sacrifice one subj so i'm sorry chem hahaha .
I don't like how i'm actually like that now :/ Like with all my studying and all that . I don't even feel like myself . But i think as we grow up we have to learn to accept that things can't always just go our way? And life really just has to give you limitations at times idk . It's part of growing up and shaping you wise me . But i'll pull through, everyone will pull through!!! Like peachplease i'm already dreaming of my after-eoy days and i have activities planned already come on man xD
It's like climbing a super steep mountain, and you'll feel like giving up midway, and you'll ponder over what's the point. But what's satisfactory is what you will see at the peak :)
OMG Chinmy is wise HAHAHAHA xD Okay enough of my "boring till the core of earth" life gahaha my next post should be during the hols already :)) I'm gonna like shower now and then study physics/history 8) OH and i'm like damn sad now ah cos' i allocated time for my afternoon nap just now but i didn't manage to fall asleep wts :( So i'll be sleepy while studying later hurhur .
Ok enough hahaha bye :D
