#23 复杂

今天就用华文写博客吧 ，英文就不够好啊。。想表现的诗情画意都打不出来 哈哈哈。

最近感触超多，心事也不少。或许是身边的人吧，又或者是那些我过度在意的 “不算朋友” ，让我发觉了很多。。太复杂的 事实。

最忠诚就是巧克力。难过的时候都会不离不弃，还很会利用自己的甜 让我心情好一点。可是，也有巧克力不中用的时候。巧克力在大热天会融化，放冰箱会太硬，更险恶的。。吃多了还会让你肥胖。所以 没有十全十美啊，也没有所幻想的 永远。自己总自以为能够 “永远” 的事物 都会有不在的时候，更会有不能在的时候。

所以 才会有孤单吧？

懊恼人与人之间建立关系的意义，更懊恼建立关系的过程。伤害无所不在，失望形影不离。或许都是期待惹的祸，又或许世间的 “善” 已经渐渐化为乌有。路嘉欣的 “你值得我慷慨” 就有说 ：“眼泪无害，有害的是期待 。”  有时候路走累了，想找个可以安心休息的地方 都会提心吊胆，害怕找到的靠山 靠不住。我不知道到底怎么样才能建立起完全的信任，也摸不着信任的止境。什么样的信任才能让身边的人感到被爱惜，又能避免自己受到伤害？
答案：无解。

化为乌有是必然吗？

最近发现，“忘记” 是人的本能。千交代 万交代 不能忘，还是会忘。不管是日常生活的小事，或是人命关天的大事，“忘记” 逃不掉。我们曾活过的足迹，随着时间 会慢慢淡化；我们曾给予他人的帮助，自己曾收过的爱待， 也很遗憾的 受到了 “忘记” 的威胁。忘记 可能不完全坏，再怎么说 那些可恶，讨厌的回忆 没有人想要守着。可是 很多时候，对于想忘和不想忘的，我们没的选择，也不能掌控。想一想啊，当自己离开人世间的时候，究竟会有几个人把我们牢牢记在心里？ 又会有几个人 会为自己的离去而难过一辈子呢？人 总会忘记。我们 总会被忘记。没有所谓的 永远把你放在心里，因为时间会很险恶的 把 “忘记” 偷偷输入进你的心房。
所以我也已经慢慢接受了 “忘记”，只希望大家会懂得   珍惜。

你爱的人 来的难得。爱你的人 来的罕见。

我对于给予别人的爱待 总小心翼翼。不是冷漠，是怕受伤。人心难测啊，别人挂在嘴边的真心 我都会赋予怀疑。是蛮抱歉的啦，可是真的还蛮不愿让别人伤害我。所以 不妨提防啊！所以我爱的那些人啊 你们应该感到很荣幸好不好 哈哈哈。爱 有很多种，所以才会让人总摸不着。“爱” 和 “在意” 却有着天壤之别。我在意的人有很多，可是我爱的人 少之又少啊。我对爱吝啬，对关心却慷慨。因为我觉得  爱 是一个完全不一样的境界。它远超乎了普通的关心与善待，它所包含的是神圣的无私与无条件的接受和体谅。而那种爱 是多么难得啊。
那种爱 是多么美丽啊。
很多人老爱滥用 “我爱你” 这三个字。在 “我爱你” 的背后，应该存在着满满的故事，应该有着让人感动肺腑，心头温暖的曾经。现在反省一下，你曾说过的 “我爱你” ，背后真的有着这样的故事吗？你曾说过的 “我爱你”，真的打从心里 真心的吗？我不同意 这样的滥用，更不同意那些不真心  的真心。

我觉得人活着 就会面对太多的复杂，让人抓狂的复杂。生命就有很多事情是我们不能控制的啊。命运就是有够他妈的贱。。可是人只活一次嘛，只要活得过得去自己的良心  我觉得就已经很不错了！不要活得有遗憾，不要活得见不得光，接受这些 复杂 ，然后再用心建立起   属于自己完美的 复杂。

#22 ECP with 4C'14

Had class outing on monday 20.10.14 :D
And we went to ECP again HAHAHA . Cycled and then played ball and slacked at the beach here and there haha 

"The town was paper, but the memories were not." - John Green, Paper Towns 

Uploading a part of the pictures (which will mainly consist of moi mwahaha) the rest can be found on Evelyn's facebook! (if you are a friend hehe)

Alicia ruining my beautiful legs

Am i fabulous now

Cool picture of Jordan hahaha

What exactly are they doing to my legs

I think this picture of Jordan and Zuohao is cute haha

Bong and Chinmy's romantic moment 

Attendance that day! :)

are we models yet HAHA

who do i choose

girls attendance! :)

just let me outta there 

we are too fabulous for the camera

spins me around to take a picture HAHA

model of the year

anyone want my namecard?

oops random class photo HAHA

deskmates ftw ❤

Marcus be like "what chu doing huh ."

statue of liberty #1

that bike thingy is a killer

bong dance HAHAHA

Shi Ni is dying at the back HAHA

talk about the future like we had a clue ~

statue of liberty #2

This is candid i swear HAHA

so just get my namecard no kidding

haha this photo of em is cute and my boy be like a boss

I LOOK TALL YES

we try so hard HAHAHA

this was yesterday HAHA #whatschooldoestous

this is so hilarious i cannot even

edited picture of Jordan

want his namecard too? HAHAHA

"Cause honey your soul will never grow old, it's evergreen. 

And baby your smile's forever in my mind and memory."  - Ed Sheeran

Thank you 4C! :D

photo credits to Evelyn, Alicia, Yeehui!

#21 it's EOEOYS baby

EOEOYS IN DA HOUSE YO .
HAHA congrats everyone for surviving this year it was a tiring year i have so much feels. And whatever our results come out to be let's fudge it and enjoy life like gdi it's over :')

HAHA so to mark the start of eoeoys i had a series of events w my loved ones ❤❤❤


On wednesdayyy 15.10.14 (right after the last paper yes) went out w my babes yo

 YEAAHH we went to Wild Wild Wet woohoooooo

 This was after we showered ahaha

*leaves Tiffany out to bully her but she didz not seez* *plan fails*

Regina selfies w everyone

Went to downtown east for a walk after that and Glenda is lame LAAAMEEE

ARE WE CUTE YET ARE WE ARE WE

HAHAHA it was really funnnnn but of course it's cuz of the company ;))) *i'm so sweet guys you are welcome* HAHA THE TORPEDO RIDE WAS AWESOME ((regina totally did not enjoy that ride eheheheh ily regina)) it's like you stand in a box-like thingy and then there's this countdown part then the floor will just give way and you will just fall downwards until you hit a slide and then you just slide down super fast hahaha wth i sound illogical IDK HAHAHA BUT YES IT WAS FUN AND A GREAT EXPERIENCE the first fall part is like woah 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8ewfXUSkB8 can see the preview HAHA but i swear it doesn't look as scary as when you actl get up there and feel it 

They are having a promotion for students now at $14 and you get food too so go visit! :))





Then on thursday 16.10.14 spent a day w Jordan hehe it was nothing special, our usual activities ahahaha 

We watched Annabelle! And yes let me have my mini review HAHAHA
Before we went for the show we already heard many sucky reviews about the movie and sorts but i mean you never know until you actually watch it am i right . Soooo we went and yes it is actually quite bad HAHAHA i mean it's not that THAT bad butttt yeah it's not good HAHAHAHA . It's just... a lot of jump scares? Half of the show is just jump scares it's like excessive man you can even predict the jump scare LOL And i swear the scene is nowhere near scary if not for the ultra loud sound effect which contributes to the whole jumpy thing. And am personally not a fan of jump scares i mean what is the point especially when you have so many of it. What if i die of a heart attack hello not funny. The "ghost" or "demon" or whatever was not scary at all the whole thing about the show is just the sound hahaha. The doll was nice though (i personally like it okay stop judging i thought the doll was done pretty well) Jordan was my entertainment though HAHAHAHAHA the degree in which he jumped at every jump scare was hilarious and am honestly more startled by his reaction than the movie xD And then he will turn around and tell me "wah omg scare me" like HAHAHAHA I CAN TELL x'D It's funny. He's funny. Ok ty.

We did not take any selfies so nope no picturessss

But these cushions are so cuteeee ehehe ❤

And thennnn after the movie we went home and made tteobokki!!! HAHAHA it was funnn and we are so good at this gahd no idea 

IT LOOKS SO NICE RIGHT HAHAHA it taste not baaaad not fantastic but yes not bad AHAHA xD The paste itself is (Y)(Y)(Y) We are potential chefs please hire us .

That's the end of thursday!

Then on Friday 17.10.14 i was supposed to go out again with the girls but we didn't confirm anything so it was sorta cancelled not cancelled idk but yeah we didn't go out aww :(

So i stayed home and camped on my drama (ahhh best activity on earth) and then Jordan came over to join me afterwards after his midnight cycle with the guys

(This is no joke they cycled from like 9pm++ till 4:30am in the morning then they finally stopped over at Zuohao's house and all got too tired so they fell asleep there hahaha and then woke up late morning and cycled home again omg that is such a long cycle?!? I would have decided that jumping into a nearby river is an easier way out HAHAHA Jordan is having butt and leg cramps now congratulations )

So after all that Jordan came over to my house and we watched more drama and then at night we washed Tammy's cage and showered her! :D

Say hi to furry Tammy ❤

I know you can't tell but she was biting Jordan hahaha

Spot Tammy's big head 

Isn't she adorable ❤❤❤

HAHA and then the end friday xD (why is my life so boring someone buy me some life)

Saturday 18.10.14 ((today actually)) , went to cut hair at our usual hair salon at Boon Keng w my parents :)) 

That's them HAHA and thank yous to Uncle Joey!

Then cuz my mum's treatment needed 3 hours so my dad and me went to have breakfast and visited the new Sports Hub!

The place is actually pretty niceee and it's big and the whole feel is great hahaha i like it there :)) 

You can play beach volleyball! xD And isn't the view very niceeee

The weather was great too hahaha

That's the field we have and the whole thing is pretty spectacular i would really want to watch a soccer match here or smth hahaha 

Our field looks pretty crappy though ._.

And i'm quite puzzled about the seats like the color coordination? There's no coordination actually . Like there's no pattern or anything it looks extremely random idgi HAHAHA

Selfies w dad xD

Picture of my mum's V-shaped hair HAHA

YES that's all for now hahaha had fun these few days, great start to eoeoys! I have a list of drama i need to watch *motivated to the moon and back* HAHA MUCH ILYS TO EVERYONE ABOVEEE ❤

And happy eoeoys everyone! :DD











P.S. 

Glenda found this adorable picture of the 4 of us ((the 4 of us half-squatting)) HAHAHA isn't it quite cute like we did it at the same time idk xD We were desperately trying to listen to Gerry's speech during handover cuz she was crying and soft and everyth HAHAHA so cute xD Love ya Gerry! ❤